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工作室進入第五年，決定回到起點。

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今年開始造畫以系列主題為主。從前都是一幅一幅地造，兩星期、到一個月、然後兩、三個月、到用一整年的雕琢；再然後想突破天際，於是用三年時間練習速食之有個靚名叫做「即興」，用最短時間創造最大impact，叫做用力重新適應呢個地方的深層文化，一個完全不在計劃（或者直情是無辦法計劃）的企劃。其實努力適應就等於無辦法適應，令原本就唔會舒服的旅程增添更多艱辛，可以話活在「生與死」、「善與惡」、「天與地」之邊緣。這四年的拉扯相比果三年肉身之旅，跳躍式的高低跌宕絕對是超越想像地「地獄」。

但我諗，未去過九十年代春運的廣洲東火車站，又點會理解到而家的深圳有幾咁IFC ?! 

Sorry 講遠咗。

工作室是2020年10月10日開波的，今年9月尾開始柄埋，到連電話都熄Q咗佢。心諗，背負著一大舊難攤子、沒有一點光的理想、爭分奪秒的現實衝擊、一幅一幅逼住我抱憾終生的畫面，我決心做一個了結：放棄做一條三文魚，做番條魚毛隨波逐流該是正事。然後在10月8號果晚當我攤喺度接受緊命運安排之時，醒起過兩日就是五周年，突然間就有一滴光入咗來，現實是過兩秒我依舊在計劃了結並沒有很戲劇化的轉變。

就喺2024年10月10日當日中午，無意識地行咗去開咗度門，望一望四周，之後的36小時＋36小時＋36小時＋36小時，就在忘我地工作。如是者直到呢個moment接近另一個36小時。或者是最裡面的自我爭脫咗出來，或者是真喺好撚愛，或者只是純粹硬頸到一個盡頭。

Sorry 醒咗真喺好難瞓得番。

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建立其實都易，破壞簡直無難度；難嘅，喺修補。

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理論上，對於點樣可以爬出深淵，其實訓練一下幻想力，您係可以飛出嚟，然後用多少少力水仲可以離撚埋地添。

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如果現實教我裝睡，那麼就清醒地造夢。

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As the studio enters its fifth year, I have decided to return to the starting point.

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This year, I started to create based on a thematic series. Previously, it was just working piece by piece, ranging from two weeks to a month, then escalating to two to three months, even a whole year of refinement. As always, seeking to break boundaries, I have used three years to practice speed, aptly named "improvisation," creating maximum impact in the shortest time. The idea was to deeply adapt to the culture of this city, a project entirely unplanned (or perhaps simply unplannable). When u try to adapt, it means u will never adapt. Well, I have added more challenges to an already arduous journey, living on the edge of "life and death," "good and evil," "heaven and hell." The struggles of these four years, compared to the preceding three-year physical journey, have been a rollercoaster beyond the realms of "hell."

But I believe, without having experienced the Guangzhou East Railway Station during the Spring Festival of the 1990s, how could one amazed by the IFC vibe of Shenzhen now?!

Apologies for digressing.

The studio started on 10.10.2020, and by the end of September this year, everything fell apart, even the internet went dead. With a heavy burden of unresolved issues, a fading idealism, the harsh reality of time ticking away, and images that haunt me relentlessly, I decided to bring closure: I cannot be a salmon, I should swim with the flow like a tiny fish with other fish like you don't know which fish is the fish. Then, on the evening of 8/10, as I lay there accepting my fate, its coming fifth year of studio in 2 days just crossed my mind. Suddenly, a tiny light came into my dark room, but in reality, 2 seconds later, I continued making plans for my closure. Sorry, no dramatic shift.

On 10.10.2024, around noon, I walked unconsciously towards the studio, gazed around, and for the next 36 hours + 36 hours + 36 hours + 36 hours, I continued work and work like unstoppable. Until now another 36 hours have passed. Perhaps the inner self broke free; maybe it was genuine love, or possibly just sheer stubbornness to an extreme.

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It's hard to go back to sleep when you are awakened in the middle of the night.

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Establishing is easy, destruction is effortless, and the real challenge lies in repair.

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In theory, about climbing out of hell, if you use a bit of imagination, you can actually fly up and even head up to the sky.

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If reality teaches me to stay slumber, then I shall dream awake.